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To settle an argument we once had, no, I do not remember everything.
I do not want to remember everything.
Do you remember everything? I didn't think so.
I haven't seen it all. But you're right in saying I've been around for a good while. Longer than you have or ever will be anyway.
Now you know I've spoken of gods before, and great magic, and I know your disbelief, but you'll just have to listen.
There are gods.
I've met one, I think. On this, I've always been somewhat unclear. What is it when your first memories are not your own? When sometimes you see things that aren't in front of you? Well, that is how it is between myself and Thysx, a great goddess. She's never said this explicitly. But I don't know what else it would be. I'm not in love with her.
She hasn't been around for thousands of years anyhow.
So, yeah, moving on.
Whenever that happened, it wasn't the start of it all, but it wasn't late enough that I couldn't ask around, you know? The desert remembered a lot. The rivers kind of don't shut up about it honestly. Which does make me doubt it sometimes. But we all somehow know her.
Anyways, here is a short account of the order of things back in the age of gods. It was mostly told to me by an old river
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Dear Mountain,
I find it odd that you don't remember this. I am almost sure we have had this discussion before.
But okay, if you would like me to tell it again, I don't mind.
The Bird
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Chaos was rather jealous back then.
The Void, which has never, in my memory, done much to anyone especially, was as it has always been, and Chaos found this intimidating. Or maybe belittling is the right word.
Furthermore, Chaos had quickly gotten to odds with Order, as you can imagine.And so Chaos decided to make some moves.
First they reached into the Void and created from it Qenihyrs. Qenihyrs loved Chaos, her father, but it was the Void she found a deep sympathy for. It is hard to say even now what it is. Not quite a friendship or a marriage. In some ways similar to what we have.
This connection compelled her arms to stretch around the Void entirely and forever hold it tight to her. And though you may doubt me, this is what holds us still close to the void. It is just a fact, as undetectable as it is, that it is there.
Chaos feared Qenihyrs would be able to command the Void, and so they plucked out her eye to demonstrate their power over her. This injustice would never be forgotten by her, and she would never forgive her father of it. However, the crime brought one good thing a child. Kasys - god of the first star.
He's the sun you know.
Kasys was the first light in not just this dessert, but at all. Little Kasys. Honestly, I have no clue his size. Gods are so hard to look at. Oh, but you wouldn't know.
Anyways, Kasys regained some place for Order, and this angered Chaos, who went again to the Void and pulled from it the great wrestler of fire,Daaxtiaies,Daaxt, a sister for Qenihyrs.
NowDaaxtiaiesDaaxt was made of a fire so intense and everlasting, that there was not much point in wrestling her and expecting to win. Gods will attempt impossible things anyway, of course.
And they did have some fun in both the chaos and fun of testingDaaxtiaies'sDaaxt's limits, and further, when they hadn't the interest, DaaxtiaiesDaaxt was a natural instigator, and constantly picking fights.
For every fight betweenDaaxtiaiesDaaxt and another, dismay would result. It is she who brings the sun down from Kasys, and in the process always spreads something against his light: storms, disaster, death.
Qenihyrs began to deeply resent her sister and father, and this drove her further inward and into the void. There she could hide herself from her abuser.
And so Chaos was rather pleased with this situation, as you can imagine, and ifDaaxtiaiesDaaxt was his daughter, Kasys very much became more of Qenihyrs' son - a family divided, commanded by chaos, and an absent mother.
It is in this time that chaos became maligned. Before it was thought of as rather neutral. But now, what many of us remember still, is this angry force. But who can say what Chaos really feels? It's a mistake to say we can truly understand them. Still, most of us have yet to forgive Chaos, I think. It's not as if we consider it nearly as valuable as Order, do we?
Anyways. This situation compelled a cycle. The light of day would spread Order from Kasys. And thenDaaxtiaiesDaaxt would bring the sun down, burning so hot that by the time it reached the below, it was a great ball of ash. And this ash we know as the moon, and naturally, it began to be the symbol for Chaos.
As Kasys chained the celestial bodies together, once again Order began to restore itself. Chaos looked further down upon Qenihyrs for not being able to control her offspring Kasys. Qenihyrs remained hidden in the Void.
Afraid of Chaos, Kaysys would hid too - among the stars in hope of preserving himself, and in doing so had taken a deep interest in leading godly and mortal business upon worlds, where stars and moons can have great effects upon fields and seas and even life in nature.
Qenihyrs was forever bound with the void, but in that time even more of her was lost, and for a time Chaos did not know if Qenihyrs was speaking as the void itself, and it feared again that this time Qenihyrs could swallow them up. However, at the end of this time Qenihyris instead bore from her breasts a god named Thsyx instead. From this time, Qenihrys began to emerge and change. Suddenly angry, assertive, lustful.Thsyx learned quickly of Chaos' terrible influence upon her family, and set out to correct this. Thsyx called out to her brother and hatched a plan. Thsyx goadedDaaxtiaiesDaaxt into wrestling Kasys, knowing Kasys always lost this fight. But this time the goal was to neither win nor lose, but prolong Daaxtiaies.Daaxt.And so Kasys did. The god of Sky and the God of Fire tumbling for eternity, and it was at this time that Thysx fused them as the Goddess of the Fray.
From this came the first dragon who Thsyx was bound to, as she was now bound to her brother and her aunt,Daaxtiaies.Daaxt.
And so it was that the gods unified in this little way, protected by the first dragon, in defiance of Chaos.
This was not the end of their disagreemants, but it began an era of balance, nature, and the creation of life._______________________
It was around this time I came into creation and was bound, like the first dragon, to Thsyx.
Or so I believe.
The river I got most of this story from is nearly dried up, and the silt beneath it does not remember a thing.
What I remember is something - I don't know - something still difficult to focus on. And only after some time do I remember really knowing I could articulate this way at all. And for a time she was with me or was a part of me.
And speaking was as if multitudes of life had decided to eject their words in every direction, which is as confusing as it sounds.
That was when this place was more green and life hadn't spread yet.
And then less so or at least she said less.
So that's all I really know.
That and what the desert tells me, which isn't much, but sometimes I can see it hiding things behind the sand. We can be this way towards one another, us old things.
You go from naive to intimately familiar, to a kind of vulnerability so blaring you become paranoid of your oldest associates.
What they know. What they remember about yourself, that you yourself forgot ages ago.
I would like a nap. I'll speak to you soon again.
- Kashaf
I do not want to remember everything.
Do you remember everything? I didn't think so.
I haven't seen it all. But you're right in saying I've been around for a good while. Longer than you have or ever will be anyway.
Now you know I've spoken of gods before, and great magic, and I know your disbelief, but you'll just have to listen.
There are gods.
I've met one, I think. On this, I've always been somewhat unclear. What is it when your first memories are not your own? When sometimes you see things that aren't in front of you? Well, that is how it is between myself and Thysx, a great goddess. She's never said this explicitly. But I don't know what else it would be. I'm not in love with her.
She hasn't been around for thousands of years anyhow.
So, yeah, moving on.
Whenever that happened, it wasn't the start of it all, but it wasn't late enough that I couldn't ask around, you know? The desert remembered a lot. The rivers kind of don't shut up about it honestly. Which does make me doubt it sometimes. But we all somehow know her.
Anyways, here is a short account of the order of things back in the age of gods. It was mostly told to me by an old river
==========================================
Dear Mountain,
I find it odd that you don't remember this. I am almost sure we have had this discussion before.
But okay, if you would like me to tell it again, I don't mind.
The Bird
--------------------------------------------------------------
Chaos was rather jealous back then.
The Void, which has never, in my memory, done much to anyone especially, was as it has always been, and Chaos found this intimidating. Or maybe belittling is the right word.
Furthermore, Chaos had quickly gotten to odds with Order, as you can imagine.And so Chaos decided to make some moves.
First they reached into the Void and created from it Qenihyrs. Qenihyrs loved Chaos, her father, but it was the Void she found a deep sympathy for. It is hard to say even now what it is. Not quite a friendship or a marriage. In some ways similar to what we have.
This connection compelled her arms to stretch around the Void entirely and forever hold it tight to her. And though you may doubt me, this is what holds us still close to the void. It is just a fact, as undetectable as it is, that it is there.
Chaos feared Qenihyrs would be able to command the Void, and so they plucked out her eye to demonstrate their power over her. This injustice would never be forgotten by her, and she would never forgive her father of it. However, the crime brought one good thing a child. Kasys - god of the first star.
He's the sun you know.
Kasys was the first light in not just this dessert, but at all. Little Kasys. Honestly, I have no clue his size. Gods are so hard to look at. Oh, but you wouldn't know.
Anyways, Kasys regained some place for Order, and this angered Chaos, who went again to the Void and pulled from it the great wrestler of fire,
Now
And they did have some fun in both the chaos and fun of testing
For every fight between
Qenihyrs began to deeply resent her sister and father, and this drove her further inward and into the void. There she could hide herself from her abuser.
And so Chaos was rather pleased with this situation, as you can imagine, and if
It is in this time that chaos became maligned. Before it was thought of as rather neutral. But now, what many of us remember still, is this angry force. But who can say what Chaos really feels? It's a mistake to say we can truly understand them. Still, most of us have yet to forgive Chaos, I think. It's not as if we consider it nearly as valuable as Order, do we?
Anyways. This situation compelled a cycle. The light of day would spread Order from Kasys. And then
As Kasys chained the celestial bodies together, once again Order began to restore itself. Chaos looked further down upon Qenihyrs for not being able to control her offspring Kasys. Qenihyrs remained hidden in the Void.
Afraid of Chaos, Kaysys would hid too - among the stars in hope of preserving himself, and in doing so had taken a deep interest in leading godly and mortal business upon worlds, where stars and moons can have great effects upon fields and seas and even life in nature.
Qenihyrs was forever bound with the void, but in that time even more of her was lost, and for a time Chaos did not know if Qenihyrs was speaking as the void itself, and it feared again that this time Qenihyrs could swallow them up. However, at the end of this time Qenihyris instead bore from her breasts a god named Thsyx instead. From this time, Qenihrys began to emerge and change. Suddenly angry, assertive, lustful.Thsyx learned quickly of Chaos' terrible influence upon her family, and set out to correct this. Thsyx called out to her brother and hatched a plan. Thsyx goaded
From this came the first dragon who Thsyx was bound to, as she was now bound to her brother and her aunt,
And so it was that the gods unified in this little way, protected by the first dragon, in defiance of Chaos.
This was not the end of their disagreemants, but it began an era of balance, nature, and the creation of life._______________________
It was around this time I came into creation and was bound, like the first dragon, to Thsyx.
Or so I believe.
The river I got most of this story from is nearly dried up, and the silt beneath it does not remember a thing.
What I remember is something - I don't know - something still difficult to focus on. And only after some time do I remember really knowing I could articulate this way at all. And for a time she was with me or was a part of me.
And speaking was as if multitudes of life had decided to eject their words in every direction, which is as confusing as it sounds.
That was when this place was more green and life hadn't spread yet.
And then less so or at least she said less.
So that's all I really know.
That and what the desert tells me, which isn't much, but sometimes I can see it hiding things behind the sand. We can be this way towards one another, us old things.
You go from naive to intimately familiar, to a kind of vulnerability so blaring you become paranoid of your oldest associates.
What they know. What they remember about yourself, that you yourself forgot ages ago.
I would like a nap. I'll speak to you soon again.
- Kashaf